I was going to post something sort of funny, but this has been hitting me harder.
I’ve been failing a lot lately.
at work: Huge mistakes. Not responding to people when I should.
side projects: Putting them off, even when people are depending on me.
at home: Not being flexible as the boy grows in mobility and stubbornness. Not devoting the focus on Jesus that I should as a husband and father. Letting things like bills and yardwork just sit there.
This isn’t a call for sympathy. More than anything, I’m wondering aloud if this happens to anyone else. Not just making a big mistake in one area of life. Like feeling that you’re not getting anything right.
It’s actually an exciting time of life for me and us. Changes are around the corner. Dreams are close to completion. The baby is more communicative and playful than ever.
I’m hesitant to just chalk it up to the enemy robbing me of my joy. I’m actually in a good mood a lot. You can usually tell by how silly some of my posts and Twitterations (i dislike the term “tweets”) are. I just am screwing things up. Like I’m lacking motivation to do the things I should.
You know, one of the only areas in my life where I’ve been consistent is here. Blogging.
Hmm…
No related posts.
when things are busy.. yes this definitely happens. It’s hard to juggle everything.
i literally just sighed a sigh of relief. because i was actually wondering the exact same thing a few weeks ago. thanks for this.
i suppose there are just ebbs and flows of suckyness. but its good that we recognize them, you know?
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Thank you for saying exactly what’s on my mind. I’m in the same boat right now.
Failing at getting school work done, staying in touch with friends and family, paying bills, saving money, making important phone calls, etc etc etc…
Thank goodness we get to try again tomorrow, huh?
Yeah, I feel that way… almost always. The only thing that helps is when I feel really connected with God. Then everything seems better. I sometimes wonder if it’s that my expectations are too high, but other times, it is like I’m saying to myself, “you’re s’posed to be a grown-up man! what’s wrong with you?”
I find myself comparing myself with others, (often a mistake) and usually, I’m looking at the person who does _______ the best. I wonder why I can’t measure up.
You’re an awesome dad though who is obviously introspective, conscientious, and multi-faceted. May this time make you more thankful for God’s grace and mercy.
Great post.
kristin – yes, things are certainly busy. i’m taking a stand on saying ‘no’.
anonymous erin – word. i hope i remember this time and learn whatever i need to learn from it.
lindsey – it’s a cliche, but every day really is a new opportunity!
brad – thanks. nice to know there are dudes who feel this way, too! speaking of comparison, FancyPants has a great post about it.
Right there with you. Great thoughts.
(You’re all linked up now.)
Yeah, I just posted something on this very thing today. Blast that feeling of failure…
Hey there,
I had wandered to Tam’s site from Mandy’s blog and your title caught my eye. I am a mom of two little ones…and am in the middle of THIS sort of an afternoon. WHEN am I going to get my act together? For an today, I decided to browse blogs. Glad to know that I’m not the only parent who feels at a time or two or 7,902 like a failure. We’ll get there, He wants to get us there. At least, that’s what He said in Phil. 1:6. Here’s to pressing on and growing as a parent!
mud puppy – thanks!
georgia – i’m glad that we can all appreciate God’s grace in our weakness together!
danielle – i hope this evening was better than your afternoon! God’s grace is even made evident in our kids. we fail and they still love us the same!